Alright, i'm new here so i'm not quite sure how this will go and I was torn on where to put this since its such a wide range of topics. I've bounced back and forth from seeing things, feeling things, mental images and what not.

I can't hear per se but words form up in my mind more like a book to what people, or things, are saying. Also, I can't 'see' things but I can tell they are there and alot of times I start getting mental images. In a way I do want to hear and I do want to see what is around me, but like most, fear drags me back to the safety. I myself seem to believe that when I was younger I got so scared to the point of disapating my 'abilities' and now that fear has overrun my mind I can't seem to get it back. I was wondering if anyone knew how to re-establish such abilities.

Something more, my house is indeed infected with what I believe chased us down from house to house. I have been able to commute via mind with what is around me which I don't quite understand how. Is it telepathy?

I had never talked to my mother about such things until late last year when she had a friend who brought her into this stuff which somewhat irritated me as she tried to 'lock my abilities up because I was too young to deal with it'. I have been dealing it all of this for as long as I can remember but since then I have had difficulties and I think she has adjitated what was/is here now. But since confessing to my mother we have talked about it and it turns out that she can see things such as these shadows that infect our house, such as the black cat that has wandered about freely.

Lately however, the shadows have become more and more restless and angry, trying to blacken and come closer or just crawl around on the celings and walls. My mother also uses sage. So, what I am getting at is, how can you see these more clearly, how can you keep the shadows at a certian radius because they're scaring the **** out of me constantly, are they irritated that we have been paying less attention to them, and do you think that the sage is actually making them more irritable to the point of them being more frequent. My last part was because every time she uses it, she thinks it clenses the area, however to me it makes them freak out and swarm with hate.

I also participate in what i've been calling energy transfer, or manipulation where I can send energy to another person and they can litterally feel what I am doing. I have had mainly one person whom I do this with constantly but it has been tested on others as well. In the beginning it was more tangible but within the past few months I have been feeling it less and less where as I used to be able to feel as though the person was right next to me. I would like to understand why this is happening and how it could be brought to how it was previously.

I constantly deal with things around me and always have as far as I am concerned, however I do have slight amnesia all through out my fourth grade year, to my eighth. I can usually look beyond what happens or ignore somethings but It gets hard at times when things decide to act up more after watching a show and you are more sensible to what surrounds you. Usually like I said i'm fine and can go past it, other times however I tear up and get as scared as a little three year old and start shaking violently.

As stated earlier, I have slight amnesia and I have lost most ability to see or hear which I don't truly know why but I based it off of fear, but then I start thinking maybe something bad happened, in any case the majority of this started in my ninth grade when I began playing with a ouija board, bad mistake, and got caught up with a demon. The most real that I have witnessed by him was that he spun one of those toy capsuls, the thing the toy comes in when you put 25-50 cents in the machine and twist it. This scared me to no end. In my second semester he and some others disappeared. I had began learning from then on and teaching only myself as though it was natural, honestly it scared and concerned me for my own health, my well-being.

In my second semester I started using the energy manipulation with the person that i've been using it with since then. It scared the shit out of him, might I add that he is in another state. But he went along with it due to curiousity and unfortunatly he is now dealing with the shadows, I believe it is my fault for exposing him to such things. In any case everything has progressed up to this point.

To myself I am a skeptic and believer. Times I believe that I am crazy and don't want to and then I feel and/or see something that brings it all back. Times I wish I wasn't able to have any of this, but alot of the times I wish I could be completly open to all of it.

Sorry for such a lenghty topic. I would very much like it if I could get some insight, own opinions, and answered questions. Thank you very much for your time.<3